water weight

Today I am 33 weeks and 5 days into pregnancy. I am 8 weeks and 1 day into bed rest.

Today I spend in the hospital. Well, really I got here last night because my BP was high at the doctors visit yesterday and that along with a SIXTEEN lb weight gain in two weeks warranted an overnight stay in the hospital.

16 lbs in two weeks. That's over a lb a day in water that I have been retaining. The only way to combat this is to drink MORE water, which I have been chugging ever since I got here yesterday. And, it's worked! As of this morning I have lost 5 lbs so far. (You don't know it, but I am grinning right now about this.)

As you already know, I think bed rest sucks. Royally. But bedrest while gaining excessive weight is totally worse. And discouraging. And crappy!

In addition to my over night 5 lb weight loss, other good news... I think I'll be having a baby in like two weeks. Eek. It is exciting and absolutely freaking terrifying.

It's amazing to me that there is a baby inside of me right now that could survive outside of me. But he's still in me. It's creepy and wonderful, and wonderfully creepy, too.

 I am going to have a son in my arms in just a few weeks. A little tiny half me, half Matt. It's extremely intimidating and a life altering reality. What an honor.

tired.

7 weeks and 5 days into this bed rest pregnancy journey.

My back and my butt hurt. A lot. The baby has spent most of his time really high in my belly and definitely towards my front. But two days ago I noticed that I don't feel him as much when I push on my belly. About the same time, two days ago, I started having gnarly back pain on my right side. The little guy must be moving back towards my back more - how pleasant. My butt pain is like sciatic nerve pain - also very pleasant.

My medications make me sleepy. I love to sleep. However, for the first time in my life I am having a hard time getting comfortable and falling asleep.

Oh yeah, I'm pregnant.

Last night I got into bed at about 11pm and watched Netflix until I forgot about my back pain and finally fell asleep around 1. Then I slept in until 10am. This was lovely. Then Matt came home from overtime and we napped from 1:30-4pm. This was even more lovely! But now it's about 7pm and I am ready to go back to bed. Is this sleepiness 'just being pregnant' as everyone tells me? Or is it my medication mixed with the depression that comes along with bed rest? Or is it possible that along with my loss of muscle mass I am also losing all ( and I mean ALL ) of my energy?

I want to be enjoyable to be around. I want to have new things to talk about with my family members as they sit with me on the couch day in and day out. But my god, it's exhausting trying to pretend to have energy.

And I'm tired!

bed rest baby.

6 weeks and 5 days into bed rest. The kind of bed rest where you can get up, go to the bathroom, make yourself a bowl of cereal and sit your big pregnant butt back on the couch or lay in bed.

If one more person says to me, "I wish I could sit at home and watch Netflix all day..."
God help me.  I wish that I could:
Have a baby shower
Attend a 4th of July celebration
Go out to dinner for my birthday 
Walk around the block
Go to the grocery store

Don't get me wrong, Netflix is fabulous. I love Netflix. But one can only take so much Netflix, TV, books, Facebook day in and day out for 6 weeks and counting!

Yes, laying around on the couch is comfy... for a little while. Then your back starts to hurt. So you reposition, move around, add pillows. Then you start to ache somewhere else. But it's only 11am, I still have the rest of the day...!

Forgive me for complaining. I am large, uncomfortable, pregnant and down right bitchy.

And if you're wondering if, by chance through all my negative comments, do I see all the positives? I do.

My son is healthy. I get to feel him kick me all the time. He is thriving in my womb even though my high blood pressure environment isn't ideal. I have great friends and family support. My husband is so kick ass, really. He's the best at loving me through this, while I am surely hard to love all the time right now.

But still, bed rest sucks.